Unearthed Treasure

" It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and the reality of tomorrow."

- Robbert Goddard (Rocket fuel scientist)

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My post is a little bit late. I should have written it yesterday.

This is my post to thank a long lost friend who had helped me yesterday. Yesterday I felt so angry at the world. Then help came. It may not be much help but it calmed me.

I am angry at the world because I feel I am alone. I know millions share my experiences today, but somehow I feel trapped, alone in the world.

I just wish these tribulations would end sooner. Deep inside I feel I cannot take it anymore. I am already blinded of my hate. And Blame God whom I know deep inside is my only hope.
I wish I could let Him enter my life again. My life's frustrations had hardened me from my beliefs. Gosh...

Last night I am watching TV in our house. We do not have an antenna. (long story) so I made a makeshift one. The drawback is that sometimes getting a signal is very hard. Sometimes there are only about 2 to 4 channels available. Anyway, I was watching TV then all of a sudden maybe my neighbor turned on their TV and destroyed my viewing time. ( it affects reception so my favorite channel was disconnected.) All of the channels are gone except one. I had to watch the remaining channel, and the show was a evangelical one. (need I tell?)

I was amazed at the man preaching. It is as if he was talking to me in person. His topic is about mine. So I related a lot. Half of me was amazed and was touched. And the other half disbelieves (just a coincidence). Nevertheless his prayer moved me a bit, so dragging my negative personality I tried to listen to his preaching and tried a bit to pray. Maybe a pinch of hope is left in me. Maybe a thread of light shone. (even if it's so faint)

I tried to make a prayer request today as soon as I had the chance. But there's an error in my system. It kept unaccepted. Another proof that there's so many people in this world in need of help, resorting to these sites. The traffic must have been huge.

I hope there's hope for me. I still believe I can manage to crawl out of this slump. These trials are strengthening my resilience. And sometimes (I think) weakening me....Right now I am confused....