Smile

"I feel like smiling today, though my pocket and my heart hurts and my spirit badly broken. Maybe the aches and pains cracked my skull a bit, gladly it broke pointing upwards."

humbug...


The loan shark came late today. I'm glad I had the chance to have a couple of patrons to produce my amount. I smiled on him. And all I get is a stare and he forgot to give me my change.

I ate my breakfast-lunch combo at the other tenant cafeteria nearby. We chatted a little. I wonder why we are both smiling and laughing a bit while talking about our problems. On how measly patrons come by. The rising costs to run our businesses, the never-ending payments to be made, the unfair electric bills, and so on. Maybe laughter is the only pain reliever we got.

I smiled on my few costumers today. One had many demands with the same premium, while another had a little (no, big) trouble selecting what to purchase. The PC is continuously running, and so is the electricity. In the end I had to settle on a few bucks for such a long service. It's okay I guess. I need to please the customers first before thinking about the money.

I am smiling to myself right now. While continuously thinking where to get money to pay my bumbai friend over there tomorrow. And maybe later this afternoon, my landlady would surely ask me for an advance again, as fervent as the sun would rise in the morning. Not to mention what would we eat this evening.

I guess my body is tired of frowning. It seems to smile despite feeling grief right now. I think my face muscles are a bit tired too. They tend to point upwards heaven asking for redemption.

"Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing." ~Mother Teresa

Mini Coupe

"Dream all you like, coz it's free of charge."

I am always fascinated with the mini coupe. It's design, lightweight, small size but big power, maneuverability, and speed. Not to mention it's durability in its class. It formally outsmarts its Honda, Nissan and Toyota counterparts.

It has a slightly higher price though. And cars like this in the Philippines are a bit rare. You would have to pay higher for it's duties and taxes. It's parts are a bit rare too.

I would love to own one someday. And with my status right now, It seems a bit impossible. But who knows.

I am now in a deep day dreaming trance. Need more customers to wake me up.

Badly Beaten

Problems are like surfing waves. It never stops on coming and the deadlier part is not what you see in the surface but what's underneath."

It's class time. And once again the streets are flooding with people. Flooding with prospective customers. There's a simple catch though, why am I still not inching forward. It's been almost a week now. And still my sales do not even measure half of my sales last year. My competitor isn't faring much better either. Maybe because of a new school policy. The students cannot have much time to take a break and go to my establishment.

I maybe paranoid. It's been only a week. Sales will soon push up. But the sad thing is while I am still waiting for my market to pick up, everyone near me pulls me down.

1. The loan shark gets double the money compared to vacation time. Thank God there's only a week remaining debt on him.
2. My landlord requires me to pay a hundred up to three a day. (Not even letting me stabilize my condition before filling up their pockets.) (They must be thinking that: It's class time, and I would have enormous sales so go get lucky)
3. The drought time last vacation depleted my inventory. Now I am grasping for money to fill my budget on material expenses. Thank God my suppliers sometimes lets me give a couple of hundreds raincheck once in a while. ( still not enough)
4. My son is now with me because I transferred him here. Not expecting this monetary trials, now I am always getting a problem where to get funds to feed him. ( I was used to eat late, or not at all to save cash)
5. My time in the shop was shortened. Because I have to close shop at lunchtime and at the afternoon to wait for my son on the school gates. (good timing: that's when most of my customers arrive)
6. The stupid installment I got that I am now very regretful of: At first I pay only once a month (which was pre-agreed). Now they tell me that I need to pay every 2 weeks. ( I could not make any logical explanation on it)
7. I am already two months due to my bank loans. They are already harassing me and my wife.
8. My very much overdue loan grants to my friends are not paying back. (huhuhuuuu)

I am now at the end of my patience. If not for my son and wife I would had made a killing spree here because of too much going on my head. Too much problems. God help me. I have pleaded so many times already I could not help but complain. I think two more months like this and I would snap.

"I may be badly beaten, but I am not broken."

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Just Killing Time

Funny there are still no customers this early. And the 5-6 guy is about to come. Haaay. just killing my time here. Hope to kill my poverty too.