The epic methodology of a third world man

Para sa Masa

2010-10-27T00:22:00.000-07:00

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(4 english speaking friends)

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LeanneTot's Assignment

2010-08-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

Idioms and Phrases

1. Above and beyond: More than what is normally required.

The rescuer's performance was above and beyond that of anyone else in the force today.

2. Beyond the call of duty: Exceeding what a particular job requires.

He was awarded the medal for showing bravery above and beyond the call of duty.

3. Above suspicion: So trustworthy as never to be suspected of wrongdoing.

The queen is so honorable and trustworthy that she is above suspicion.

4. Ace in the hole: Something important held in reserve.

The twenty pesos I hid in my pocket is my only ace in the hole.

5. Acid Test:a test: whose findings are beyond doubt or dispute.

The turmoil that the president is facing right now is an acid test of what he is capable of.

6. Across th Board: Shared equally by everyone.

The labor groups isn't happy with the wage hike because what they want is

a P 125 across the board increase.

7. Act as someone: Act or perform temporarily or permanently in the capacity of someone else.

It was a tough day for the office for Lucy. She had to act as someone in order for the whole line to push through.

8. Act of God: A manifestation especially of a violent or destructive natural force, such as a lightning strike or earthquake, that is beyond human power to cause, prevent, or control.

The whole city was affected by the irremediable calamity, but it was an act of God and we cannot blame anyone else about it.

9. Act of War: an aggressive act, usually employing military force, which constitutes an immediate threat to peace.

The assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand of Austria, was considered an act of war and triggered the famous World War I.

10. Add fuel to the fire: To do something that would make the situation worse.

Police officers posing and taking pictures near the bus hostage sight seemed not to help but add fuel to the fire for the now angry Hong Kong people.

11. Afraid to one's own shadow: to be extremely nervous and easily frightened.

She's always having panic attacks, she's the kind of person who's afraid of her own shadow.

12. After all is said and done: when everything is settled or concluded; finally.

After all is said and done, it will turn out just as I said.

13. After hours: after the regular closing time; after any normal or regular time, such as one's bedtime.

John got a job sweeping floors in the library after hours.

14. After the fact:after something has happened; after something, such as a crime, has taken place.

John will never change. He is always making excuses after the fact.

15. Against someone's will: To do something without the person's consent.

The suspect's brother was held against his will, and it angered the hostage taker.

16. Against the clock: A race in time. To do something in urgency.

The SWAT team was very nervous because their actions was against the clock. The situation may worsen any moment now.

Just Passing Through

2009-12-21T20:23:00.000-08:00

P - pray
U - until
S - something
H - happens

It's been endless since I last logged in... Thank God it's not yet removed from google. A lot of bad has happened and I'm not ready to write more for my journal. Just passing by to check.

Great Tips

2009-08-13T17:09:00.000-07:00

Here are some great tips on how to become a successful pain in the ass businessman:

1. A day after a tenant pays the rent, ask for an advance.

2. Use a sub-meter for your spaces. Just multiply it at anyway you like. They won;t bother, and you can suck up all the electricity you want without paying for it.

3. Use powerful tactics. Tell your debtors you have nothing to eat. So they would pay.

4. When somebody dies, don't care for them. They are dead remember?

5. Your stomach is much more important than your tenant's stomach.

6. Tell others you pity them, to soften their hearts. Then ask for payment.

7. When somebody bids for a higher price, evict the existing and replace right away.

8. Always upgrade your prices on a scheduled basis. They would not mind.

9. Tell them lies about the rent, on the discounts and rebates, they could do nothing after the business has already been made.

10. Eat drink and be merry, for tomorrow you will die.

Goodbye

2009-08-02T19:52:00.000-07:00

Our country's former and first female president passed away last August 1, 2009. A pillar to our democracy has taken her last bow. Many were moved by this event. many were shocked, many were regretful of her passing. Truly this event will be remembered by every Filipino forever, and surely would be written on the history books and in our hearts forever. Every Filipino would be silently mourning on the passing of a once great and silent leader.

	Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek

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However, I realized that death is a sure thing in this world. Another glitch on the saying: "Nothing is permanent except change." Death is certain, and death will be permanent here in our worldly life. I begin to think of my own death, and felt so helpless and pitiful for my family. That's why I really should persevere more.

I also realized that not all of us will be minding the same thing as the other, much less the death of a former president. Us for the instance, our family is mourning not for Tita Cory, but for a mother who's not only taken care of her daughters and grandchildren, but of us her in-laws as well.

(to be continued....)

A Day of Celebration and A Day of Mourning

2009-08-01T01:00:00.000-07:00

In Loving Memory of my Mother-in-Law. Sally R. Leoniso.
August 22, 1954 - July 31, 2009

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My wife almost celebrated her 30th birthday yesterday. There were some small glitches that hindered us from celebrating.

1. We had a little fight in the morning over the net. I admit it's my fault. I had been so grumpy because I am so tired of living our life. My body needs a break so badly and my head always hurt thinking for a solution to our problems.

2. I thought me and my son could surprise her in the afternoon with some decent cake or anything within our budget. But once again when I looked for cash i my register all I saw were coins and a couple of bills that would not even be enough to pay my loan shark the next day. The "ghosts" took away my money once again.

3. My mother-in law passed away in the evening without even any sign.

Death and Resurrection

2009-07-31T20:31:00.000-07:00

" One of the most intriguing facts about life is: It is short, very complicated, and frustrating. Yet you would like it to last. "

I had been very very busy making ends meet for me and my family to survive ,barely to eat and live each day. My blog was dead for quite some time now. Today is Saturday. And I thought I may have time to write something. Nonetheless write an important announcement. My business is surviving. There was still no revenue from this God-forsaken shop. But I still believe I could make it work. I just need a little more time, more patience, a little extra cash for capital so that I could offer more services, and a little (and impossible) concern from my landlord who always and never fails to take away my hard earned money, not taking into consideration that I need to make my funds stable for a moment, in order to normalize my operations.

It was my wife's birthday yesterday, and we could not even celebrate.

My earnings just went to the rent, to the utilities, to the raw material purchases and inventories. I just thank God I still get away from getting some loose change in order for my son to eat and have some cash for his "Baon" in school. I have borrowed money several times already in order to continue my business. In short my shop is eating funds and not generating one.

I still could not let go of my shop. I have done almost everything if not everything in order to produce a decent income for my shop. But letting go means another round of expenses. And I could not afford that.

I think my post sounds like it's more than a resurrection to death again than a real coming to life. I could do no more. I'll just let God do his work and leave it up to Him to do the decisions for me for now. Because my body and mind is already tired and weak. I am even very tired and reluctant to write a post, if not that I had promised myself to do so.

Haaaay, " Life is such a beautiful thing. "

Smile

2009-06-05T21:11:00.000-07:00

"I feel like smiling today, though my pocket and my heart hurts and my spirit badly broken. Maybe the aches and pains cracked my skull a bit, gladly it broke pointing upwards."

humbug...

The loan shark came late today. I'm glad I had the chance to have a couple of patrons to produce my amount. I smiled on him. And all I get is a stare and he forgot to give me my change.

I ate my breakfast-lunch combo at the other tenant cafeteria nearby. We chatted a little. I wonder why we are both smiling and laughing a bit while talking about our problems. On how measly patrons come by. The rising costs to run our businesses, the never-ending payments to be made, the unfair electric bills, and so on. Maybe laughter is the only pain reliever we got.

I smiled on my few costumers today. One had many demands with the same premium, while another had a little (no, big) trouble selecting what to purchase. The PC is continuously running, and so is the electricity. In the end I had to settle on a few bucks for such a long service. It's okay I guess. I need to please the customers first before thinking about the money.

I am smiling to myself right now. While continuously thinking where to get money to pay my bumbai friend over there tomorrow. And maybe later this afternoon, my landlady would surely ask me for an advance again, as fervent as the sun would rise in the morning. Not to mention what would we eat this evening.

I guess my body is tired of frowning. It seems to smile despite feeling grief right now. I think my face muscles are a bit tired too. They tend to point upwards heaven asking for redemption.

"Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing." ~Mother Teresa

Mini Coupe

2009-06-04T16:58:00.000-07:00

"Dream all you like, coz it's free of charge."

I am always fascinated with the mini coupe. It's design, lightweight, small size but big power, maneuverability, and speed. Not to mention it's durability in its class. It formally outsmarts its Honda, Nissan and Toyota counterparts.

It has a slightly higher price though. And cars like this in the Philippines are a bit rare. You would have to pay higher for it's duties and taxes. It's parts are a bit rare too.

I would love to own one someday. And with my status right now, It seems a bit impossible. But who knows.

I am now in a deep day dreaming trance. Need more customers to wake me up.

Badly Beaten

2009-06-04T01:12:00.000-07:00

Problems are like surfing waves. It never stops on coming and the deadlier part is not what you see in the surface but what's underneath."

It's class time. And once again the streets are flooding with people. Flooding with prospective customers. There's a simple catch though, why am I still not inching forward. It's been almost a week now. And still my sales do not even measure half of my sales last year. My competitor isn't faring much better either. Maybe because of a new school policy. The students cannot have much time to take a break and go to my establishment.

I maybe paranoid. It's been only a week. Sales will soon push up. But the sad thing is while I am still waiting for my market to pick up, everyone near me pulls me down.

The loan shark gets double the money compared to vacation time. Thank God there's only a week remaining debt on him.
My landlord requires me to pay a hundred up to three a day. (Not even letting me stabilize my condition before filling up their pockets.) (They must be thinking that: It's class time, and I would have enormous sales so go get lucky)
The drought time last vacation depleted my inventory. Now I am grasping for money to fill my budget on material expenses. Thank God my suppliers sometimes lets me give a couple of hundreds raincheck once in a while. ( still not enough)
My son is now with me because I transferred him here. Not expecting this monetary trials, now I am always getting a problem where to get funds to feed him. ( I was used to eat late, or not at all to save cash)
My time in the shop was shortened. Because I have to close shop at lunchtime and at the afternoon to wait for my son on the school gates. (good timing: that's when most of my customers arrive)
The stupid installment I got that I am now very regretful of: At first I pay only once a month (which was pre-agreed). Now they tell me that I need to pay every 2 weeks. ( I could not make any logical explanation on it)
I am already two months due to my bank loans. They are already harassing me and my wife.
My very much overdue loan grants to my friends are not paying back. (huhuhuuuu)

I am now at the end of my patience. If not for my son and wife I would had made a killing spree here because of too much going on my head. Too much problems. God help me. I have pleaded so many times already I could not help but complain. I think two more months like this and I would snap.

"I may be badly beaten, but I am not broken."

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Just Killing Time

2009-06-02T18:08:00.000-07:00

Funny there are still no customers this early. And the 5-6 guy is about to come. Haaay. just killing my time here. Hope to kill my poverty too.

Extreme Weathering

2009-05-29T20:25:00.000-07:00

"Like simple drops of water can weather a mountain. With steady steps no matter how small, can accomplish the impossible."

It's been weeks or months of extreme sacrifice just to maintain living on this earth. Hard work, determination and fervent hope for a brighter tomorrow pushes me on. Weathering my way in this money bound society.

It's been so long since I have last visited my blog, that I cannot remember when. I was so busy the last weeks I have no time for some leisure writing. I managed moving to a new apartment, which by the way cannot be accomplished by someone else. I Managed the transfer of school by my son.
I managed rearranging the shop with miraculously minimal resources. (Still looks dilapidated though)

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time is really scarce for me. I don't have time even to finish my post. Haaay, just post it anyway.

Follow The Seed

2009-05-17T16:10:00.000-07:00

"Happiness held is the seed. Happiness shared is the flower."

I'm listening to Taylor Swift's "Love Story" right now. I can't help but fall in love with that voice. (not to mention the gorgeous face) But really, even though I never saw her face, I would still love that voice. I'm not a fan of country music, but that's voice is just something.

Glad to hear about people giving Joy to others in their own little way. Thru their songs, their blogs, their jokes, their funny videos. Kinda admit it, it makes me smile amidst my problems. Getting hooked on twitter. I love the way I get to see links to good reading stuff. Not to mention the boring ads. But it's ok. One thing I noticed is that almost "almost" twitterers are kind of well-off. They like to brag about their good lives, the vacation paradises they have been, the jetlag on their endless escapades, their new gadgets, their prominent schools and other bragging 101 blah blah blah. I thought we are in the financial crisis? Sometimes I feel out of place there. Is there a place on the net just like twitter who's members can be just who they really are. I maybe just being paranoid, but there are really some people who can't help but brag of something they have (or just imagining it to feed their ego). Specially some of my own countrymen, they are so boastful they sound stupid. (Just envy I guess) Really, some place twitterlike but only good stuff would be nice.

I like some twitbuddies on the other hand. Mostly those who write not for commercial reasons but for personal ones. i love to read their opinions, their outlooks in life, their hearts talking to me. That's lame... but it's just me. Would love listening for hours on somebody elses problems, failures and hopes than see someone selling something. That's too bad, coz we all need money ye?

I hope I can find more people who would love to tell the world about their feelings. It makes me feel human. People sharing their lives in their own personal ways are awesome. They may not know it, but it still makes a difference.

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The Seed

2009-05-17T01:50:00.000-07:00

Someone sent me an email about an article. I have no knowledge of the original author of this one so Sorry if I didn't give credit to anyone. Just wanted to say that the story was great and touchy. Also gives emphasis on the true nature of man. Too bad. Still hope there are still remaining Jims from the story. If not the world may be on the verge of getting the same fate as Sodom and Gomorrah. Happy

The Seed

A successful business man was growing old and knew it was time to choose a successor to take over the business.

Instead of choosing one of his Directors or his children, he decided to do something different. He called all the young executives in his company together.

He said, "It is time for me to step down and choose the next CEO. I have decided to choose one of you.
"The young executives were Shocked, but the boss continued. "I am going to give each one of you a SEED today - one very special SEED.
I want you to plant the seed, water it, and come back here one year from today with what you have grown from the seed I have given you.
I will then judge the plants that you bring, and the one I choose will be the next CEO."

One man, named Jim, was there that day and he, like the others, received a seed. He went home and excitedly, told his wife the story. She helped him get a pot, soil and compost and he planted the seed.
Everyday, he would water it and watch to see if it had grown. After about three weeks, some of the other executives began to talk about their seeds and the plants that were beginning to grow.

Jim kept checking his seed, but nothing ever grew....
Three weeks, four weeks, five weeks went by, still nothing.
By now, others were talking about their plants, but Jim didn't have a plant and he felt like a failure.
Six months went by -- still nothing in Jim's pot. He just knew he had killed his seed. Everyone else had trees and tall plants, but he had nothing... Jim didn't say anything to his colleagues, however... He just kept watering and fertilizing the soil - He so wanted the seed to grow.

A year finally went by and all the young executives of the company brought their plants to the CEO for inspection.
Jim told his wife that he wasn't going to take an empty pot.
But she asked him to be honest about what happened. Jim felt sick to his stomach, it was going to be the most embarrassing moment of his life, but he knew his wife was right.
He took his empty pot to the board room. When Jim arrived, he was amazed at the variety of plants grown by the other executives. They were beautiful -- in all shapes and sizes.
Jim put his empty pot on the floor and many of his colleagues laughed, a few felt sorry for him!

When the CEO arrived, he surveyed the room and greeted his young executives.

Jim just tried to hide in the back. "My, what great plants, trees, and flowers you have grown," said the CEO. "Today one of you will be appointed the next CEO!"

All of a sudden, the CEO spotted Jim at the back of the room with his empty pot. He ordered the Financial Director to bring him to the front.
Jim was terrified. He thought, "The CEO knows I'm a failure! Maybe he will have me fired!"

When Jim got to the front, the CEO asked him what had happened to his seed - Jim told him the story.

The CEO asked everyone to sit down except Jim. He looked at Jim, and then announced to the young executives, "Behold your next Chief Executive Officer! His name is Jim!"
Jim couldn't believe it. Jim couldn't even grow his seed.

"How could he be the new CEO?" the others said.

Then the CEO said, "One year ago today, I gave everyone in this room a seed.... I told you to take the seed, plant it, water it, and bring it back to me today. But I gave you all boiled seeds; they were dead - it was not possible for them to grow.

All of you, except Jim, have brought me trees and plants and flowers. When you found that the seed would not grow, you substituted another seed for the one I gave you.
Jim was the only one with the courage and honesty to bring me a pot with my seed in it. Therefore, he is the one who will be the new Chief Executive Officer!"

* If you plant honesty, you will reap trust

* If you plant goodness, you will reap friends

* If you plant humility, you will reap greatness

* If you plant perseverance, you will reap contentment

* If you plant consideration, you will reap perspective

* If you plant hard work, you will reap success

* If you plant forgiveness, you will reap reconciliation

* If you plant faith in God , you will reap a harvest

So, be careful what you plant now;
it will determine what you will reap later..

"Whatever You Give To Life, Life Gives You Back"

Media I found on funny potato.com (really funny, lol)

Dark Skies

2009-05-15T16:17:00.001-07:00

Dark Skies

Dark is the sky where lightning hides
Where thunder begins to roar
And blocks the warmth of the almighty sun
from shining on earth below
It creeps and waits for the time to weep
And flood our land with rain
The darkness will unfold in sleep
to wash the world and send it's grief
So cold, so dark, so lonely

Dark is the sky so as my mind
It weeps but no one sees
because it clouds my eyes from being seen
And all they see is a faintly grin
So as to wash the hurt inside
And in the darkness I shall hide
Until the sorrows are washed away
And I can smile and be okay

But until then
I'll just keep on pouring the rain
thinking it's better to keep crying
than to wield my lightning and
roar ye thunder
Just mask in the darkness of my skies
Until the rainbow is finally born
The pain and sorrow to hide is better
Until the lights peeps toward home.

Black Saturday

2009-05-14T20:00:00.001-07:00

Taylor Swift Cross-stitch...9516

.... will continue tomorrow...

"Why do you seek the living one among the dead? He is not here, but he has been raised."
(Luke 24:5-6)

Humbug...

Well it's Saturday today. I have managed to pay half of my obligations on time, and promised to settle the balance on Tuesday. Today is gloomy, Saturday means a few patrons, multiplying debt, wasted utilities, and broken spirits.

If not for my microbial faith I might have passed out. If not for the net who entertains and gobbles up my time and if not for Twitter who messes with your mind. There were many who are following my profile but I'm not dumb. They just want to advertise. You follow one dietitian and tons of dietitians will flood your inbox. Money biz talk shows and Robots, yeah robots. Twittering every one minute and repeating and repeating about 20 messages alternately. Hmppp... messes with the time line, making you lose track or the real people's messages.

But Why accept them?

Because I am friendly, and they have done me no wrong. Why wont I?

Why not block them?

I'm not that bad. Let's give them a chance. There's some sense in their sayings sometimes.

Tried reporting?

That's a no no. Let others do it for them. I'm not nosy.

Wait wait, I think I'm going crazy talking to my self. It's not good to do it here. I'll just do it in twitter.

This Saturday's making me insane...

"When you talk to yourself, at least you know someone is listening. And it would always agree."

Ultimatum

2009-05-14T16:10:00.000-07:00

" If doing something is hard, then it is not worth doing." Homer S.

My digital sketch of an angel...

Today is the last day for me. If I do not have the money, I'm gone. Goodbye friendster, goodbye ym, goodbye multiply, goodbye blogger, goodbye twitter.

It's up to other people that I depend on today if they can deliver or not, if they don't, then it's bye bye.

I just registered at twitter yesterday, and I am enjoying it. Too bad it's on the verge f not lasting that long.

The only thing strengthening me right now is my plea and faith that God would help me and my family.

"God, I tried my best.
This is all I can do.
And I messed it up.
I implore you to lend a hand.
Please help clean this mess I have gotten to.
You are my only hope.
And I cannot ever find anyone better for the job.
I admit I had been not so great a Christian lately.
I am so sorry.
I always forget You.
I have let my problems cover my eyes,
that I cannot see You.
I was so busy fixing my troubles,
I have forgotten holding Your hand.
I was so busy waddling on my up to neck trials,
I have forgotten that You were carrying me.
I promise not to break my covenant,
and strive to uphold it not like before.
To show You I am really willing,
and seriously pleading for Your help.
I could walk no longer.
Please, I am letting You carry me again.
That I may praise You,
and tell the whole world,
what a great God I have got.
Please, help me. Amen..."

Amen.

Cry

2009-05-13T16:02:00.000-07:00

"Let your voice come up to me in the day of trouble; I will be your saviour, so that you may give glory to me." Psalm 50:15

Humbug...

I needed help yesterday because tomorrow is the last day of my ultimatum before my poor little business will be shut down. I need about five thousand pesos. But I barely accumulated five hundred. Money is coming on Friday afternoon. But the payment is due at noon. And I'm not sure if the arriving money is even sufficient enough. After all the hardships, sweat and blood I had invested on my business, this is all I will get. Someone offered me help, a little weird one too. And I'm not sure if it can help me save face and my family. He asked me to write 20 things I am thankful about from the depths of my heart. Chuckles, like it could give me anything. But I felt the sincerity on his words and that he is so serious. Imagine I don't even know this guy. Maybe God touched me. Well, might as well give it a try. Here goes...

Twenty things I am grateful for:

1. I am thankful that me and my family are still alive today.
2. I am thankful we do not have to go to the hospital that often.
3. I am thankful we have a little something if not nothing to eat each day.
4. I am thankful my 7 year old motorcycle is still running even with little maintenance.
5. I am thankful my PC is still running after that lightning burned my lan card.
6. I am thankful I still have a couple of friends every now and then.
7. I am thankful the nails and other sharp objects steer away from my tires when I have no money for vulcanizing.
8. I am thankful car nappers do not set their eyes on my old, rusty bike. (like they would try)
9. I am thankful my I still don't have amnesia or Alzheimer's even though I am malnourished and I could still write my blog in English.
10. I am thankful the internet company still doesn't cut my service even though I'm always late for payment.
11. I am thankful there are still a few patrons coming to my shop even though I now have a rich competitor.
12. I am thankful I still earn just enough to pay the loan shark each day.
13. I am thankful I earn just enough to have one meal each day.
14. I am thankful my trusty old shoes still don't rip apart. ( just a bit)
15. I am thankful my one and only pants are still intact.
16. I am thankful our relatives take care of my son while in vacation, so I do not have to worry what to feed him.
17. I am thankful for my wife because she is the most understanding person I know. ( even though she looses it sometimes)
18. I am thankful I still remember to call God once in a while even though there are times I am angry at Him.
19. I am thankful God still loves me, and not strike me with lightning because of my painful cries.
20. I am thankful for the one who asked me to do this because he reminded me no to forget to ask God for help with this one.

Whew! took me an hour. Now both my mind and chest feels a bit light. And so are my pockets.

“If God can accomplish His purposes in this world through a broken heart, then why not thank Him for breaking yours?”

Find me twit twit..

Winning

2009-05-12T21:56:00.000-07:00

This is an excerpt from alpha omega of wordofmouthexperiment.com. thank you very much.

Winning

I am a winner;
I enjoy winning;
Winning makes me feel great;
I am successful;
I am good at what I do;
I am always improving;
I am increasingly successful;
I am happy being successful;
I am a success;
I am completing my tasks well;
I compete successfully;
I am a high achiever;
I get the results I want;
I win against the odds;
Victory is mine;

humbug...

Busy Maybe

2009-05-12T16:49:00.000-07:00

"Sucess usually comes to those who are too busy looking for it."

There's a new widget for google today. (maybe new only for me) It's "Google lattitude". I find Google's lattitude to be cool when you need to show to friends ( and all your enemies) where you are. They can find where you are living, or where you are at that moment. It's up to you to check Google lattitude's settings. You can post it on your blog, your social sites, chatrooms etc. Now all your friends and those you are running away from. Loan sharks, estafa victims and the like will now have the chance to haunt you. Just kidding. Of course you can adjust your settings to suit your taste. Maybe to misdirect them to Timbuktu is a great Idea...

One problem I find is it's embed code function. If you are not well acquainted with css or html codes, you will surely have a hard time. But practice makes perfect. Go get them tiger...
Nevertheless I find google lattitude ( from google maps) a great addition to any blog, chat, site or anything under your monitor screen. Once youv'e gotten used to it, you'll surely gonna love it.

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Customers are measly these days. Income generated from them is too small to cover even the most simple expense needed to run my business. Most of my income is used to pay my loan shark debt. So I've been busy surfing the net, playing games and well uhh, sleeping I guess.. Not too deep because I might get robbed without knowing it. I've been busy dismantling my pc and my blog page and oh my, css codes are tough for me. Simply changing my background on friendster and this blog makes my head hurt. I could not get the resolution right. I may be an undergraduate, but I learn easily. Maybe if I had gone to school or if I would have the time with no financial problems to think of, I would create a widget of sort to make it easy to do those things. Simply changing css codes would not be so easy for some average person. Now I found this google lattitude thing and I'm having a hard time. Alas I've made it! (tsamba) There is really nothing you cannot achieve when you practice and give it all. I hope I can also apply this to my poetic third world life.

"Practice makes perfect. But no body's perfect. So why bother practice?"

Rolling Stones

2009-05-10T17:42:00.000-07:00

"A rolling stone gathers no moss."

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Every coin hs two faces. And so is this phrase....
On one point of view, this quote means that if you do not move, no actions, no effort and no struggle on your part, you will not get anything. Meaning if you are not a rolling stone, you will gather moss or rust or anything you can call it. That's simple enough.

On another view, a rolling stone means an arrogant, overbearing individual. It can also be someone that is always on the go, on the move. Rolling and rolling over everybody he never had the chance to gather some "moss." Moss now described positively. Meaning if you always roll, you gather nothing. It means sometimes you must stay put firmly on the ground once in a while.
Sounds simple too. (my head starts to spin now)

Since I was young I could never decide which of the two meanings I would accept. It has been a puzzle for me since my elementary years. Humbug..

Well there is really very little connection between those quote and what I am writing today. It's nothing, I just felt a little connection.

I have been busy these couple of days planning and executing our transfer of residence. Not to mention the problems arising because we do not have sufficient funds these days. It was a neck breaking, sweat flooding, mind boggling experience. And my back aches so much today because I had to carry all (take note), all our belongings just to save some cash, not getting the services of a mover. We just rented a jeepney of a friend. We had to pack our things in 30 minutes because the rains prevented us from going home from the other town. I had to carry our things a couple of meters to the rented jeep, put on my clothes, race to our destination by my motor bike, then upon getting there I had to carry them again to our new apartment. That sucks really. Then after a sleepless night beside our still very disorganized things, I had to go to work and later continue with our arrangement. Just the thought makes my knees shiver.

Well that's life. And if I don't move, I would gather moss. On the other point, If I stood still, a miracle may come, a lightning maybe. Never mind....

“You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you might find, you get what you need”

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Fists of Puny

2009-05-08T18:33:00.000-07:00

"Time is a great teacher. But unfortunately it kills all of it's pupils."
- Louis Hector Berlioz

Humbug...

In my teenage years up to my early twenties I had this fascination about Bruce Lee. I am really intrigued about his one and three inch punches. I'm not sure if it really is possible, but I am a fan.

I once had a small and relatively cheap book about his one inch punch. But oh boy it was really rare. Somebody borrowed it a few years back. And now it's lost. (bait ko talaga) I could not found it on the net either. Until today...

I learned a new trick on how to use the Google search engine. I learned it from you tube...thanks..
And with a little bit of computer know how, you could easily access countless mp3's pdf's, e-books and the like.

Now I once again found my lost book(soft copy of course) and I will never ever lend it again.

Really time and experience will teach us in the hard way on how we should manage our assets. ( my book is so valuable for me) Even our closest of friends can sometimes be a burden. I was very loose before that I almost lost a fortune of my valuables from scrupulous people I once thought my friends. I am still friendly nowadays, but I learned to keep my treasures with extra care. Specially now that I do not have much of the purchasing power anymore.

Good grief, I need a break...

"Have fun with your life while it lasts. No one get's out of it alive."

"To Die or not to Die"

2009-05-08T16:32:00.000-07:00

"It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped."
-----Tony Robbins

The 15th of the month is coming. And it will be a hard time for me to decide whether I would stay on my place or leave. So many things I need to think about. It's like a billiard effect. Once the cue ball moves, eventually all the balls will move and it would take a great player, say, Efren Bata Reyes to calculate where each ball eventually ends.

I want to stay of course, maybe one reason is that I believe it would work out fine in the long run. Another reason might be my pride. Deep inside me I want them to see that I have persisted and is triumphant. I want them to be amazed and then snap! I will leave. "Mga mukhang pera!" " Sinungaling at manloloko!" " Walang pakundangan at walang awa!" Once I reverse our positions I will surely let you taste how hard you made it for me!!! Nice intentions. Maybe not that great. But who can blame me?

If ever I will leave, I will leave behind not only my work, source of income but a lot, A LOT of Obligations. They will be running after me. And I am not that kind of person. I pay my obligations everytime. Well, a little late this days (because I think I am at the lowest state of my life since I was born.) But never will I run from them.

I am also very apprehensive because of my son. I am sure he will have a hard time catching up with changing schools every year. How lovely fate provides...

I need to decide now. There is a chance I could survive for the next month. But with a very large cost that would or not be the nail for my coffin. I hope this is not the last for me. I believe I can do better that this. It's just that I am not so lucky this days. Funny life really is a paradox.

Sometimes I envy some of my past friends who had the chance to go to college. Who doesn't want that? They have endured most of their time in hardships and now they are rewarded. Me on the other hand had endured my own set of trials. But to no avail. But deep inside I am fighting. I will not falter. The right side of my brain continuous to battle. And dragging the weaker left. ( Is it supposed to be the left that is stronger?)

Now is the start of another day. And I would just not accept to die a loser.

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Funny Paradox

2009-05-06T19:46:00.000-07:00

"Each Moment of life is a picture that you have never seen before or ever again. Enjoy life and make each moment beautiful."

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It's just hilarious to think how funny our world works. Life has so much puzzling events that may leave us breathless, downsized or just plain bewildered. In a world where once a child is born, so full of hope in this world. Thinking about all the great things he will soon discover. To find out that life is nothing but a great bumpy roller coaster ride. It's just enough up to him on how he could handle his own unique ride.

We all as children want to grow up so fast that we make our own dilemmas that affect us and our loved ones. When we get old, we realize we need to slow things down and want to grow up again.

We spend all our time and resources even our health and even sacrifice our friends and humanhood just to earn money. Then after wards we will spend all our money to restore back our health, our relationships, friends and pride, if we are still lucky.

We always look into the future, always anxious about what we will eat next, or spend next, that we forget that we are still living in the present.

We tend to forget the past. Never caring what our roots are. Not caring that everyone knows where we once were and just acting like we are in this position for an eternity.

We tend to live in the past, not moving forward. Not letting go of the past we forget that we must live in the present as our friends and family are. Not even realizing we are being dragged and becoming burden to others.

Clearly we are not masters of our time.

We tend to live like there's no tomorrow, later dying in our beds with regret, that we have never lived the life we should have.

Funny I am pondering about these things. And still not find the answers.

A poem from sms4smile.com once said:

Life is a paradox

Whatever u want, u don’t get

Whatever u get, u don’t enjoy

Whatever u enjoy, is not permanent

Whatever is permanent, is boring …!

Cry Baby

2009-05-05T20:19:00.000-07:00

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Psalm 27

1 The LORD is my light and my salvation;
whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the strength of my life;
of whom shall I be afraid?

2 When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes,
came upon me to eat up my flesh,
they stumbled and fell.

3 Though a host should encamp against me,
my heart shall not fear:
though war should rise against me,
in this will I be confident.

4 One thing have I desired of the LORD,
that will I seek after;
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to behold the beauty of the LORD,
and to inquire in his temple.

5 For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion:
in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me;
he shall set me up upon a rock.

6 And now shall mine head be lifted up
above mine enemies round about me:
therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy;
I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD.

7 Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice:
have mercy also upon me, and answer me.

8 When thou saidst, Seek ye my face;
my heart said unto thee,
Thy face, LORD, will I seek.

9 Hide not thy face far from me;
put not thy servant away in anger:
thou hast been my help;
leave me not, neither forsake me,
O God of my salvation.

10 When my father and my mother forsake me,
then the LORD will take me up.

11 Teach me thy way, O LORD,
and lead me in a plain path,
because of mine enemies.

12 Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies:
for false witnesses are risen up against me,
and such as breathe out cruelty.

13 I had fainted, unless I had believed
to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.

14 Wait on the LORD:
be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart:
wait, I say, on the LORD.

9507
This was the second time my landlord opted to send me away. It's vacation time, and there are no foot traffic. I have already reimbursed half of my expenses which was supposedly whole and they say that half the amount will be final. That's really unfair. My competitor is now operational and my shop still looks dilapidated because of lack of funds. The 5-6 collector will be coming even with this "emong" typhoon and I still have no sales for the day. The banks are already calling. Life would be such an insult if there is no God to salvage me. I am once again on the verge of loosing hope and I could not get help from my friends.

I guess God is my only friend right now. I hope He is listening....

"He who does not hope to win has already lost." -- Jose Joaquin Olmedo

"Decidophobia"

2009-05-05T17:14:00.000-07:00

"Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less." Marie Curie

humbug...

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Life is really unfair. I felt I have just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I feel slumped. I feel small. I feel a little bit of helplessness. I feel not up to myself today.

Time is quickly passing. Moving at an incredible speed. And I cannot keep up. I feel I am being left behind. Just when did being poor considered a crime? My obligations and due payments are coming to haunt me again. And I am still not prepared. I have not yet summed up the exact amount.

My competitor is now open. I hope he has luck better than mine. He doesn't know that we will both perish. He still doesn't know what mess he has come up to.

Competition does not bother me much. What bothers me is that my income generation is not sufficient to cover everything. I feel I am losing hope. In the first place, I opened in this location to prepare for the upcoming construction of a low-cost subdivision one lot next to mine. I could also grab a lot so I will have a bigger market share and a residence nearby. All I have to do is survive a few months then I could already have a strong customer base. But I miscalculated the timing. It's been months and there hasn't been a construction going on. There has been not a single bulldozer nor a shovel touching the large vacant lot. What's taking them so long? Maybe the big politician behind this aims to postpone it till the election season. I could not keep up with the crisis situation down here. I already lack funds and my impatience is building. I need to act now.

News about the looming shutdowns at the automotive industry says it is imminent. And factories nearby are following suit. The government still continuously keeps a blind eye at these happenings and opts to redirect the people's attention, pursuing subsidies that are only short termed remedies to our ailing nation. Continuously bragging about new jobs, poor Juan just finds out there is a job mismatch and still does not get hired. Continuously bragging about it's policies to uplift and aid the SME's, poor entrepreneur soon loose grip and closes down because of lack of aid. And the ever growing crocodile illegal recruitment agencies still flooded by aspiring ofw's, later grieving over huge debt but no work and does not even have the money to buy a ticket home. It all boils down to one thing. There is a bigger pandemic we have to face. Maybe larger than the influenza A (H1N1). It is dying of hunger. Of flash floods and landslides and nonstop typhoons and global warming. And we Filipinos are not prepared. Or just pretending to be. Our government bannering it's good deeds with a hidden agenda of campaigning, the cha cha, and using our taxes to fund their exploits and to maintain their also falling businesses. They are so busy wiping their butts they have forgotten us.

My stand for now is to continue to fight. I am still beyond the brink of letting go. And I'm afraid to lose it all so no decisions for now. Maybe God will make a way.

Sometimes life just isn't fair, but that shouldn't stop you from trying to see justice done today. It's not silly to believe in fairness, it's admirable. Hang on to your idealism with all your might -- it will help you adjust to any unexpected situation, be more self-sufficient, and keep you safe from people who don't like to play by the rules. Everything cannot be completely equitable in every situation, but you can work to make it as close as possible. (ast.com)

Glass Half Empty

2009-05-04T18:12:00.001-07:00

"An optimist will tell you the glass is half-full; and the pessimist will tell you it is inappropriate because the glass is twice the size it needs to be."

humbug...

I have seen a glimpse of Dr. Phil on late TV. And somehow I found an ally on my pessimism. Not that I say Dr. Phil is a pessimist. I might say that Dr. Phil is a balanced man. In his book "Real life", he talked about having being ready for one's life challenges so that when it comes, (definitely) you would be ready. When the bad and dim side of life which is in reality inevitable comes, we should already have seen it coming. The earlier you foresee it, the better the chances you know how to deal with it. The better the chances you overcome it. The better the chances you would succeed.

One thing the optimist is lacking because nobody is perfect is that he sees everything on its bright side. (that's one good reason all of us has a negative side into us) The optimist believes that whatever comes in his way, will pass and pass with little or no harm. What he doesn't know is that life does not operate that way. One example is Dr. Phils interview with a seemingly perfect family in the US. They thought they have lived the perfect life until the inevitable came. They were devastated. They never knew what to do. Had they foreseen this, they would have been prepared for it, much less take steps to prevent it.

"The optimists never looks at the dark side. He isn't prepared for the worst." Another example is from Oprah's show. A wealthy six digit income earning family thought they have the good life then the crisis came. Don't say I didn't warn you! Had they seen this coming, they would have prepared for it so when it comes, your castle is fortified. "The optimist never sees the waves coming to smash his ship because he is busy seeking light beneath the dark clouds."

Another example is written in history. The Greeks tricked the Trojans because of a horse. The Trojans thought they have won. And the large wooden horse was taken home as a trophy. They were very much elated with their victory they never have prepared for the worst. Had there been a pessimist in their midst they should have first checked the gift before partying around. There's a very thin line between being optimistic and being careless.

'The optimist only sees good in other people. They are not prepared for the bad that is to come.'

You may seem to find my post a little disturbing. You also may find it a little stupid. But all I have to say that without the pessimists in the world, the world may not exist anymore. They Yang will not exist without the Yin. The good without the evil. There would be no bluckbuster movies without the antagonists. And there would be no lightbulb, no Curium, no pennicillin, no steel, no automobile, no electricity, no life without the instinct of the humankind to tend to think awkwardly. There would be no such discoveries if those men didn't suffered in the first place. Without the Yin to balance the Yang the world is in chaos.

I'm not telling you to be negativists either. All I'm pointing is that pessimists are also an important part of the society. They are not helpless. And as long as they do not cross the border and hurt others in any way, they are normal. And as long as being pessimistic does not endanger one's self and others, they are relevant and have value to our world.

"I'm a pessimist because of intelligence, but an optimist because of will."

Is Pessimism a Crime?

2009-05-04T17:28:00.000-07:00

This is an article from livestrong.com I find it very interesting and useful. I give full credit to them and their article. Their article really moved me.

How does pessimism and negativity affect my behavior?

When I am negative or pessimistic I:

* look at the worst side of a situation.
* say what ``I'm not'' rather than what ``I could be.''
* lack the belief that I could change.
* lose hope in the future.
* take the opposing view in any positive conversation.
* am unable to make upbeat or uplifting comments about myself or others.
* turn all conversations into griping, complaining or bitching sessions.
* have nothing good to say about myself or others.
* complain about the inequities of life.
* try nothing new or challenging because I feel that I will fail.
* get bitter over how people treat me--now and in the past.
* put down new, creative and inventive ideas as impossible.
* limit my horizons, which results in limiting my personal growth.
* take no risks.
* challenge those who are looking for the "up'" side of a tragedy, failure or disaster.
* ridicule those who believe in the power and mercy of their ``Higher Power.''
* ridicule attempts to rectify a dysfunctional situation.
* resist altering my way of thinking, because I feel nothing will help or make a difference.

end of article

Thanks to livestrong.com for the great clip. It was very depressing to see that a pessimist would be all those things. Maybe I do not totally agree to what they have said because I am not totally a pessimist. (Maybe? I guess) Nevertheless I feel that we could not really eradicate negativism in our world simply because it is a world! It is not heaven. This is reality and the reality is that there are bad things. And when there are bad things, we should be ready for them if we want ot get past those bad things. If we only look at the bright side, we won't know how to deal when the dark side comes which is by the way inevitable. All I say is we need this balance because we are human. We need this balance for us to survive. It's just my opinion. And I stand before it. comprende?

Fireflash

2009-05-04T01:27:00.000-07:00

" Keep your friends close and keep your enemies closer."

Humbug...

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I was going to buy something from a store about 10 meters from my shop when I noticed that the store owner was putting up some equipment. The thing that shocked me is that their equipment is almost identical to mine. (down to the brand and model) Later I found out that they will be putting up a shop that provides exactly the service that my shop provides. And my source,(a relative of my landlord) said that the reason of the puzzling similarity is because they have been watching me and discovering my work. I felt shattered. Why now? Why at this time that I am lacking in capital is there a competitor coming to crush me? Well, that is life and I have to deal with it... I guess..

They may have the funds, but I have the experience...hehehe... They bought a model same as mine, and I am sure they will encounter the same problems I had encountered. Problems that I am very proud I have overcome, by skill and sheer luck I guess. They are going to have a hard time I am sure... One thing that will make their life less miserable is if they have a very large surplus capital for their problems. But one thing is for sure... they will be as heartbroken as I have been once they discovered the problems that will arise once they start to operate shop.

I love my shop. It may be small and measly funded but it's everything that I've got. I sometimes want to quit because of it's low income generation but I still believe it will survive. And though I only learned this practice on my own, at home, I believe I have learned enough to survive this crisis in my life. I have learned enough to be able to learn more, to learn better, learn faster. I have made my mistakes earlier so I have learned from them earlier. I make mistakes quicker to straighten them and strengthen myself and my life's craft. I think that would be an advantage.

Another advantage that calms me down is that I have the lowest price in town. I claim it boldly because even before I started shop, I have already canvassed their prices and bench marked them on mine thereby getting the lowest price with great quality. Some say specially my suppliers that my price is almost borderline break even. I believe them. That is one reason that I am not generating enough income nowadays. That is one of my mistakes. Funny I am planning to pull my prices up a bit this next school season, but I think I should postpone it a little bit to cope with my upcoming competitor. My suppliers suggests me to price it up higher, but I want my goods to be affordable. Small profit in large quantity is my motto. They claim that no one will ever be able to beat my pricing. Any centavo lower and there would be no profit anymore. It may be not good business for me, but surely not for them either...

I want to thank my friends. They had helped me become strong a little bit. Would I found out my competitor earlier I would have quitted and die. I am grateful that even though a little bit frustrated, I had turned it into a driving force that would make me strive more and not just fall down. I think We all have our strenghts, and weaknesses. We all have our own trade secrets... And next to the "God will make a way" saying of mine is my old and ever legendary ego motto since high school, that I thought I have already lost: "No one can beat the JayuMaster!"

“A competitor will find a way to win. Competitors take bad breaks and use them to drive themselves just that much harder. Quitters take bad breaks and use them as reasons to give up. It's all a matter of pride.”

"Arrrgh-mageddon"

2009-05-03T18:01:00.000-07:00

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Thanks to www.goroadachi.com for his nice photo...

I have been wondering on this new campaign on ads this days. I first saw it on Manny Pacquiao's fight with Ricky Hatton. Some say its a campaign to urge us Pinoys to be responsible for our actions. I am not yet much aware of it's true purpose though, nor who perpetrated it. Whoever started it must have a purpose right? I hope it's really to push us to stand on our own and take due actions in pushing our motherland forward, and not just a publicity stunt of a wealthy trapo (polititian) aiming for power. One thing is sure. Their marketing strategy works. They have already aqcuired twenty-three thousand plus pledges the moment I visited their site, a lot in a short span of time.

I'm a born critic. I may trust easily, but I am really a big pessimist. It won't hurt if I comment on this ad campaign, would it? I think I see a big hole in this campaign. It is really a good thing to remind us to take responsibility for our country. Yes, to do something than to complain. To fight rather than to blame. But I am a person who likes to blame, as millions of pinoys are actually. We have our government to be blamed at of course. They are there not to be sitting ducks while earning from our precious taxes. Taxes that should have been food for our starving families. They are ther to ensure our growth and protection. Not to protect themselves and their money and businessess. They are there to ensure our future, not to be securing theirs. So who's to blame? Now that we are in a slump? Who's to blame?

We should fight to take our own actions so that by our own little way we could tip our country back in the map. For example, I have made my own pledge in the ako mismo wall. If my computation is right, if I stick to my promise, that would help the country by about 1/200 millionth (%). That's a big help....(chuckles). If all of us pinoys do our own pledge (which is unlikely) That would sum up to about 40%. Now that's great. But I think what's important (not that what our commitments will be no matter how small we are are useless but great actually) again what's important right now is the commitment of those in power.

No matter if all of us makes a commitment and does it righteously, thats only half to the solution to our problems. 50% is better than o% I know. But those in power should be the one taking charge in promoting their own commitment because they are the ones in power, and anything they do will naturally affect our motherland and our future. Whoever started this campaign should look back, this campaign was already here since the beginning of our independence. But did it bring us change? Nothing. As long as there are "rats" in the government, no campaign will ever succeed.

And what's with the dog tag? Would it remind us to keep our oaths if we see ourselves wearing it? It looks cool though. And I'm sure pinoys would readily want it and will wear it with pride. But this is my prediction, give me two years and this tag will only be seen in ones drawer or collections cabinet. It would help of course. But no tag or sign or shirt or anything material would really instill us a change of society. It is in our heritage, to be hard headed and materialistc people.

Once the government changes itself, (not the cha-cha Gloria's been frantic about) then there would be a radical change. This is my promise: Once there is not a single Pinoy family who worries what to eat or where to send their children to school or how to make their loved ones feel healthy and recover from sickness or on how to make a stable future, then there would be a CHANGE.

On the other hand, my prediction that is almost totally impossible would likely fail as expected, then we will once again blame the government, induce another "People Power", or just crawl to the ground. The government is the one that should be giving an oath. A pledge they would live with under pain of death. If not, then this campaign would again be just part of our gloomy history.

I still applaud this campaign's will and righteousness. I may have blotched it by my critisisms but deep in my heart, I wish for the best. I hope it will work. I'll start by doing my part. I hope you all do yours.

If not all of us would do our part, then there is no hope anymore. Truly the global warming issue is the hint of the nearly coming end of the world. And we are surely to blame... not just the government but all of mankind. Kinda too late huh?

Aaaaarrrrgggghhhhmageddon is coming, please contribute to stop it.....

"The catterpillar might say it's the end of the world, but actually it is the birth of a butterfly."

Cloaked Assassin

2009-05-03T16:41:00.000-07:00

“A skilful leech is better far, than half a hundred men of war.”

“Man is the only animal that can remain on friendly terms with the victims he intends to eat”
-Samuel Butler-

Hooray... as I have predicted it, Money, este Manny did it again and with swift and powerful accuracy. Most of his downed opponents were legends in their own right. It's just the timing of Manny's rise was of great precision. Most of his downed opponents were on the brink of retirement. I mean they were all oldies! Have he fought them in the prime of their age and skill, the result would be different. Of course Manny would still win for me, but not that easily.

Once again the whole Philippines were paused the time manny stepped on the ring. There were no people on the streets, no vehicles around. The whole country stood still for a moment. The war in Mindanao was halted for a while, crime rates were almost zero, and the whole economy froze. Same as mine, my shop was closed the whole day, so today I don't have a cent to pay for my lender who's coming later to haunt me.... Haaaaaayyyy....

I envy Manny....He persevered so much to get to where he is today. I wish I could do the same. I also feel a little bit sad for him though, for he is having a silent killer in his trail.

The human instinct is a great phenomenon for us. It is blurredly explained and not all of us believe in the scientific studies. But it always baffles me. It is hard to explain and prove but we all know that it is real, we just don't accept it. We ignore it coz we cannot comprehend. Our egos continue to block reality.

What am I talking about? What silent killer? What phenomenon? The human instinct is the one killer I am talking about. Imagine if Pacman wasn't as famous as he is now? ( Sorry manny, your'e the best example eh) What if Pacman wasn't as rich and famous and powerful and wealthy and idolized as today? Would we care? He was very poor as a child. Where were his relatives? I'm sure if those people knew what Pacman would be in the future, they would have invested money and time for him! Where were his friends? Where were the stupid government who always and eternally promise help for poor pinoys but wasn't really there? Now that he is rich and famous and powerful and very much idolized, his family tree grew from a small household to a whole city....wow how amazing. Humans are leeches, I mean leeches would be kinder for they only feed as much as they can handle and is not picky. Humans on the other hand are more savage, more animals...Even if you take a bath a hundred times a day, perfume all you want, put gold all over your body, you will still be what you are. The humankind's instinct of sticking to you only when they can milk you is the truth, and it's my opinion, so argue all you can but you cannot convince me that you are only supporting your friend or your far far far far far relative. Humbug...where were you when he needed you? Now that he doesn't need you anymore you will say you support him? He doesn't even know you're his kin!

Never mind....Even if I speak here endlessly until the servers of Google are full to their limit no one will comprehend because we were programmed that way. That is the reasons there are saints, they are the chosen ones who accepted the truth and reality of the human mind... I'm not saying I am perfect...I may also be like everyone else. But I am aware of that fact and greatly distaste it. Maybe because I am angry at the world. Maybe because I see myself in manny's shoes when he still wasn't wearing one. Maybe I hate this world because the world is not here for me, Just like manny, the world wasn't there for him when he needed it. Now the world is greatly for him not for support, but because the world needed him. And when a man strove to attain his goal and his dreams crawling on his own, he will surely be disgusted to see leeches inching towards him, absent when he was down, present when he is up.

I may be angry at the world to say those, but it is the reality... Go on, let yourself be blind. The time you realize it would be too late, and it's not my fault. I admire Manny for being so generous and firmly rooted. I hope those leeches would feel the need to act human again....

Go Manny.....

“Do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day.”

Manny Ponkyaw

2009-05-01T18:27:00.001-07:00

I made a cartoon caricature of manny in PS. I wasn't doing much today.

I was thinking of a quote from the Pacman but I didn't find much. Luckily I found one on wordpress... thanks to leylander...

“Quotes!..
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Quotes!…
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Quotes?….
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Quotes?!…..”
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- Manny Pacquiao calling the attention of his coach Freddie Roach.

And here's another one from you tube:

An interview after the Barrera fight:
" So I tried my best so a give a good fight I know he tried his best to give a good fight but I know my Philippines is happy I use a gloves I like a "Clitoris" (Cleto Reyes) Gloves so I win the fight what I mean is I use "Clitoris Gloves I comfortable so I better fighter..."

Forgive me fans...I was just having fun. I am a great fan. As a matter of fact my shop is closed everytime Manny has a fight. My shop will be closed tomorrow as usual. I just think he is funny. And you know how I love to pick on wealthy people you know...

But I believe Manny is a great fighter. He speaks English like crap but nobody is perfect. As others would say, "dibale ng tanga mayaman naman!" (It doesn't matter if I'm stupid, but I am wealthy).

I'm not sure if he will win tomorrow, but my bet's still on him...Mabuhey ke money!!! este Manny!!!

"Laban Manny, Laban!!!"

My Last Breath

2009-04-30T22:22:00.001-07:00

"Habit is stronger than reason."
- George Sanayana

humbug...

I'm busy today...might as well postpone my post for tomorrow...

9502

At last, a time for my post...

I have been in this vice for almost 13 years now. And I could never recall how many sticks have I finished. According to an online smoking calculator, I may have smoked almost a hundred thousand of them and may have cost me almost two hundred thousand pesos. That's a lot of money. I have tried to quit so many times I could not recall how many. But the urge always wins.

I have done so many things to stop. I tried seeking help from a company doctor. ( she didn't help), I've tried prescriptions, goal setting, starving myself but nothing worked. I tried so many tactics to reason myself, my family, my child's health, for love, for my health, for money. But nothing won. I am even smoking this very minute. Well, that's too bad....

Now that I am desperate coz of my poverty, I need to try once more...this time, now that I have told thew world, I hope it could make me quit. I'll try to save the money I will spend and see how will I fare. Let's see if habit is stronger than reason. Let's change it a bit.
"The empty stomach is stronger than habit"
Sounds weird, and stupid. But might as well give it a try.....

You have smoked roughly 94,900 cigarettes!

Smoking cigarettes costs you $280.00 per week, $1,216.67 per month, and $14,600.00 per year.

Based on the national average of cigarettes smoked and the average seven years of life lost due to smoking, smokers lose 5 1/2 minutes of life per cigarette smoked. At this rate, your life may be shortened by as much as 669 hours per year by smoking 20 cigarettes a day.

This works out to 27.88 days lost per year.

Over the last 13 years, you may have already shortened your life by 362.47 days!

Even though there is no exact way to predict the amount of life lost to smoking, know that tobacco use can cut valuable years from your lifespan!

If you continue smoking you will smoke 7,300 cigarettes over the next year, 36,500 cigarettes over the next five years, and 73,000 cigarettes over the next 10 years. Don't forget that each of these cigarettes decreases your lifespan too!

Courtesy of www.tobaccofreeu.org

Blood Clot

2009-04-28T23:48:00.000-07:00

"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow''

humbug...

I am at a loss now...but still struggling. I need to act fast now. I found a new apartment just a kilometer from my shop. It's not big, just enough for us. It's not pretty either, but homely and I think it's a bit peaceful. The problem is I do not have enough cash for the advance and deposit. I spent my money to repair my pc remember?

Need to make odds meet! God will make a way! I could no longer afford my apartment in Sta. Rosa. I need to transfer now, before somebody else grabs the cheap apartment that I have found. Apartments here costs ranging from 2,500 up, and cheap ones are hard to find.

I finally found my favorite song since elementary...I thought I will not hear it again.
thanks to don...
http://www.angelfire.com/planet/donz65/godwillmakeaway/

God Will Make A Way

Don Moen

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way....
He will make a way

Oh God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way.....
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
And He will do something new today

Oh God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way...
He will make a way

NARRATION

Oh God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way....
He will make a way

With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way....
He will make a way

I love that song...It reminds me to be strong, likely I need it this time. Need to make a way to stop bleeding...

All I need to do now is wait...wait until God moves...for I cannot do anything anymore... My life bleeds away after all that I have done to prevent it. I need help... I have done everything in my power to fight. But it's just too hard for me. Every time I do something to survive, a new dilemma comes. I hope my waiting would give new hope to stop the bleeding, and I hope my waiting would not result of being bled to death.

" All good things comes to those who wait" - Robert de niro

I successfully uploaded my video to you tube...hopulykit...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ppu4XFzxy_Y

Poor Pinoy

2009-04-28T21:22:00.001-07:00

“Whoever said money can't buy happiness simply didn't know where to go shopping.”

Humbuggg...

I was very very anxious the moment I came to my shop this morning. I readily opened my PC, browsed the internet, and read about. In a couple of minutes (my pc is slow) my nervousness was calmed, my anxiety pacified, my heartbeat normalized and the smile on my face vanished...

"I did not win the lotto!"

I have been betting in the national lottery for several years now...and not even one time, not even once that I won a cent. Maybe I have no luck at all. And still like the other million people out there we would still bet tomorrow. Like some people would say, " There is a greater probability that you would be struck by lightning this minute than win the lotto." "People that put their hopes in games of chance are those uneducated and hopeless individuals" Well, I don't care. I may have helped the Philippine Charity Sweepstakes Office to help poorer Pinoys with what I am doing, for part of the money is meant for charity. I also may have helped those corrupt individuals laundering the government's money. I may have helped Gloria in her candidacy! Such excuse is so lame. For the true reason is us Pinoys' hopelessness, dire need of cash, instant wealth, instant prosperity. Well just what I have said..."I don't care"

The only thing disturbs me is the feeling I get which is probably what almost all of us get. The frustration, the pain, the suffering....On how we tirelessly wait in lines at the Lotto outlet just to take our chance for the big bucks. On how we intently pray (which is wrong) that luck may pass our way. The bitter reality that we lost our money for a piece of parchment that's not even enough to light our charcoal stoves. Well, maybe that's what life is after all...

Tomorrow will be another day. And tommorow I will waste my money again for this stupid game. And who knows, I may win. Or I may be frustrated once more, just like what I've been doing all my life....

"Success doesn't happen overnight. It's the small successes achieved day by day that build a company. So, don't be impatient or focused on immediate financial rewards."

-John Gokongwei

Where do I go?

2009-04-27T20:54:00.000-07:00

"Do not go where the path may lead. Instead, go where there is no path, and leave a trail"

Humbug...

Ever wonder why there are times you really want to go to a place and end up steering off to another one? Or when you dream of something but no matter what you do you end up into another reality as if it's somebody else s' dream?

I keep on thinking about it...and finally found a solution to it. I see it in my self as distractions. Chapters in our life that slows us down, or steers us away from our chosen path. Like getting pregnant accidentally (sample only) You dream of finishing your studies then you get pregnant. Or when you plan of embarking on a business then a new job came...or a promotion...or a different kind of business... You do not notice them, but they have a huge effect on your chosen path...your dream....

I myself is a great example of those people bombarded by so much drastically life changing events. Maybe someday I will have the courage (and the time and effort) to publicly announce it to the web. But only one things for sure. those events changed my life. In reality I do not regret those experiences, but sometimes wonder if I hadn't let my self be diverted to my course, "Would I be happy?" Maybe that's what God has blessed me. Or that's my mission in this world. Maybe...

One thing I noticed on successful people is that they have this ability to be cold hearted in a sense they do not let their experiences halt or slow them, much less divert them from their chosen path. They have this sense of firmness that whatever happens, they will march on straight and with no stoppage. Their focus is so strong they do not leave time to look to the side, which is not good to my standards. Like the crab thinkers (remember?) "But it makes the job done!!!" I hope I could learn to live that way....but I don't think God wants me to. I think he made me a little bit soft to be able to be sensitive to others....which is a nice thing for me...

It may have slowed me down...(to a point like turtles dashing.....so slowly) But I still believe I can reach my goal. (I hope in time) And when that time comes I will feel complete. Just as my saying goes..."Yeah yeah...your approach is more effective and quick...But mine has more drama and effect to others." (which is a poor but more HUMANLIKE thing for me...) Truly I had chosen my (slow) but memorable path that I can be proud (or ashamed) to tell to my grandkids....

“Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence.”

"Gut Sum Balls?"

2009-04-24T01:53:00.000-07:00

" Talent is essential to live a dream, but guts are needed to make it happen."

It's a bit of coincidence why I am writing this post. I will be talking about guts and how I can manage to get out of my rut. I was delayed for a couple of days because when I was just beginning to write this post a strong electrical surge fried my PC, along with the little hope that's left. I was just thankful my data was not destroyed. I borrowed some cash (AGAIN) and sent my PC to a repairman. Now my dilapidated machine became slower, some functions missing but still grateful to run. Oh thank God....now armed with an injured PC, less cash, more debt, a couple of days without income and destroyed morale, I am now resuming my fight against poverty.

Funny me talking about guts and balls in a time my gut is about to be sucked to it's limit, and my balls shrinking.

I wonder how other people manage to survive. I can't even think what to do next. Nevertheless I need to continue living. Sucking the last of my gut and the last of my shrunken balls ( sounds funny) I will fight. Maybe fighting not anymore for hope, but because of pride. I don't want to die broke, as I was born broke.

Unearthed Treasure

2009-04-23T17:38:00.000-07:00

" It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and the reality of tomorrow."

- Robbert Goddard (Rocket fuel scientist)

9424
My post is a little bit late. I should have written it yesterday.

This is my post to thank a long lost friend who had helped me yesterday. Yesterday I felt so angry at the world. Then help came. It may not be much help but it calmed me.

I am angry at the world because I feel I am alone. I know millions share my experiences today, but somehow I feel trapped, alone in the world.

I just wish these tribulations would end sooner. Deep inside I feel I cannot take it anymore. I am already blinded of my hate. And Blame God whom I know deep inside is my only hope.
I wish I could let Him enter my life again. My life's frustrations had hardened me from my beliefs. Gosh...

Last night I am watching TV in our house. We do not have an antenna. (long story) so I made a makeshift one. The drawback is that sometimes getting a signal is very hard. Sometimes there are only about 2 to 4 channels available. Anyway, I was watching TV then all of a sudden maybe my neighbor turned on their TV and destroyed my viewing time. ( it affects reception so my favorite channel was disconnected.) All of the channels are gone except one. I had to watch the remaining channel, and the show was a evangelical one. (need I tell?)

I was amazed at the man preaching. It is as if he was talking to me in person. His topic is about mine. So I related a lot. Half of me was amazed and was touched. And the other half disbelieves (just a coincidence). Nevertheless his prayer moved me a bit, so dragging my negative personality I tried to listen to his preaching and tried a bit to pray. Maybe a pinch of hope is left in me. Maybe a thread of light shone. (even if it's so faint)

I tried to make a prayer request today as soon as I had the chance. But there's an error in my system. It kept unaccepted. Another proof that there's so many people in this world in need of help, resorting to these sites. The traffic must have been huge.

I hope there's hope for me. I still believe I can manage to crawl out of this slump. These trials are strengthening my resilience. And sometimes (I think) weakening me....Right now I am confused....

A Terrible Day

2009-04-22T17:43:00.000-07:00

"Jonelta Banana"

" Amidst a vast dark and gloomy sky peeps a thread of light"

Humbug...

Sorry if my gaphics are bad....I'm having a bad day....

That's it...my landlady warned me that if I could not produce cash tomorrow for my rent, they would be giving my office to another tenant. I could not blame them. That's the reality, they are doing business and when a business goes bad, they have to take actions like what they just did. But deep inside I could not help but despair. "Why this time?" I could have easily produced that amount if not for the vacation season. It's just not fair for me because of their timing. Now I am thinking, "Would I hold on or just let go?" I'm having a big trouble deciding today. And I could not help but cry. Thank God There are no customers. They might think I'm losing my mind.

I could not think of a possible solution right now. The time limit is just too steep. I could not help but faintly blame God. I'm sorry if I'm sinning today. I just could not help it. I could not help but blame Him for forsaking me. Deep inside I'm trying to calm myself, telling myself that it is just one of those trials God has blessed me. And He knows that I can overcome it, just to make me stronger. But another side of me mourns. "Why me? Why this time? Are You not even feeling a bit of pity for my family? Even just for my son? Or You just don't care?" I'm so sorry for my blasphemy. I just couldn't help myself.

Now calm down....I could not calm down...The fire raging inside is so intense I could not hold it down. Maybe I'm thinking I'm on the verge of insanity. Sometimes I even compare myself to people who killed themselves, seeing myself in them, feeling and noticing some common signs. I even see signs in me being crazy. "What if I get outside right now, stab anyone who crosses my path, then kill myself later?" I keep on fighting that feeling. I need someone to talk to...

My Nephew who's as poor as me right now...
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A humble Seed: Communist by Heart

2009-04-21T00:31:00.001-07:00

VOP chapel....
Used to play ( and pray ) here.....
Thanks to Jethro Yasis for his nice shots...

"People without the knowledge of their past history, origin and culture are like trees without roots."

So much memories...

Humbug...

I need not elaborate about my past life in my high school days at the SOM. I feel that I am not even worthy of talking about it. All I can say is that it was a very big part of my life and without it, I may be nothing today. (bakit? something kanaba?) The prestigious school has imprinted an indelible mark on my personality, my beliefs, my whole being. If I hadn't studied there, I would have been a poorer, incapable and incompetent man. Yes I'm still down today, but it would have been worse.

One thing the congregation thought us unknowingly of course is the communist way of life. Once you enter that school. You shed all your belongings down to the underwear and change it to the standard. We virtually have the same kind of clothes, school supplies, toiletries, leisure equipment and mode of education. We even have exactly the same food in almost the same amount each day everyday for the whole year. We receive the same care and attention, medical, intellectual, emotional and spiritual from the modest student to the average to the lowest. A grade A student is treated and educated just as the same as the Grade P's. And FYI, we have no books. We are being spoon fed by our mentors in a way maybe to save the cost of buying several books but for me most specially to learn and develop just as everyone else. Study like everyone else, train like everyone else. The only thing different is how a student accepts and makes use of that equality.

When something goes bad, when there are offenders of the rules, we receive almost the same kind of reprimand, punishment and civil service as everyone else. Fluctuating only in a sense on who's your superior. Whether you are popular or not, you receive the same kind of attention. positive or negative. There may be a little bit of favoritism, and a little of those scum individuals I am not proud of, But our life from the time we wake up till the time we sleep is exactly the same. Yes, we wake up at the same time, brush our teeth, take a bath, study, eat, work, play, pray and sleep at the same time. Accurate to the second.

We plant crops there, sometimes we make some commercial activities and all our harvest will be shared to the very last citizen regardless of the size of his stomach. May sound weird, some say boring. But for me it's like a mini paradise.

I may have said so much, but my point is I have lived there for so long that I had gotten used to it and now I am in the real world, I find it hard to adjust to the impartiality and unfairness of this world. That is the reason I am very ANGRRRRYYY at wealthy individuals.... Yeah its not their fault. But I am just angry. Sue me.

Root Crisis part 5: Tahong (Mussel) mentality

2009-04-20T21:51:00.000-07:00

Tahong: abalone, mollusks, sea shells....sea dwellers...

"We should not be like shells that dwell in the bottom of the sea but soar like eagles in the sky. Ignorance is a crime"

Humbug...

Need to rest now...maybe next time. There's a customer coming...wish me luck...(coins that is)

I'm back....and I think I hurt my back badly. I also have a headache today. Anywayssss, need to type through...This is the last ( 5th) cause of financial crisis of us Pinoys.

TAHONG ( MUSSELS ) MENTALITY...That's new. Actually it has been with us since our Grandpas and Grandmas and their ancestors before them. We just don't see it. ( I begin to feel that one reason we are poor is that we tend not to see things...) Are we blind!!??!! Oh Cmon...

Lets pretend we are in an elementary class and the great JayuMaster will lecture a topic... say Biology? Class, our topic for today is about sea dwelling animals. Examples of sea dwellers are mollusks, clams, shells and sponges. They stick to the bottom of the sea, to corals, shipwrecks, rocks, and other hard immovable objects. " Take note": THEY EAT BY SIFTING SMALL MICROORGANISMS UNDERWATER. That's right... we tend to stick to what we are comfortable to, become complacent, just make of what we actually can find (and just stay put). Afraid to explore our potentials, to learn, to give and take in return. To see other places, learn new things. The world is larger than you think. And if you're contented with what you have, you may be happy, ( you think?) But actually you've become a liability, a burden to others. In short WLA KANG SILBI!!! (You have no value) Thats what I mean folks... I hope you don't mind...

One of my practice pics (scanned)

Did I hurt somebody's feelings? Yeah yeah, you would contradict me again as expected. But unless all of us open our eyes to the sickening truth, we will not have the chance to dig ourselves from this pit of poverty. Yemen?.......Yemen!!!

"I'm only a high school graduate." "I have no capital." " I don't know a thing about business." "This is what my family is doing for years." "I cannot do that." "I am afraid." "What if I fail?" This is the only means of Income that I know" LAME EXCUSES!!!

It is of course the duty of the government to uplift the education and means of the society. We could not get over this slump without proper guidance and enlightenment. We need support from the government. Lower taxes for starting businesses. Support for financing, marketing, outsourcing and protection against fallouts. Of course I believe that we are capable of this things. There is one catch though. In my opinion, the only means that we can change or mend this last mentality problem is when all four ( let me enumerate) mentalities specially the fourth (crab)
is addressed.

Employee Mentality
Reward Yourself (too early) Mentality
Ego Financial System Mentality
Crab Mentality
Tahong Mentality

Of course its hard to address all, specially when those above us doesn't even care for the lower classes.
So good luck...I've done my part. Now think about yours... I think that's fair enough?

"My child, you are not created to be like ducks swaddling in the mud but to be like eagles destined to rise above!"-Fr. Al Schwartz

Founder of the Sisters of Mary Foundation. (which I am very proud of though not publicly)

Root Crisis part 4: Crab Mentality

2009-04-20T20:49:00.000-07:00

1st Place in the Luzon competition, last place in the gratitude department.

"If I can't have it, neither can you"
---Wiki----

2nd to the last of my never ending epic blabbers about our uncontrollable misery is about the Pinoy's tendency to be crablike in face of our fellowmen. I need not emphasize on this topic because everyone knows about this and it is already a scratched ( gasgas na- hanep sa english)
topic. Neither need I cite examples coz it's already very common ( though I really want to cite one that I am gritting my teeth in absolute anger right now. Instead, I will just explore (like I always want to) why we tend to be like these creatures though lowly, are a very important part of the ecosystem.

Ever wonder why someone or almost everyone tend to pull us down even though we all know that we are striving our best, not stepping on others just to succeed? Believe me or not, all of us have that tendency one way or the other. You may not accept the truth. But there are times you tend to pull others down for your own uplift, even just mentally and never actually doing it.

Ever encountered a time of your life when you did not share a small information so that your team will win in school competitions? Do you have trade secrets in your business? (all of us do) You ask me, why would I share my business trade secrets with competitors? That is correct. Because the moment you expose them, your opponents will overthrow you. Just like you, they know something you'd like to know but are not willing to share it for their own survival. That's the smallest example of crab mentality. You may argue about it, but it is true. All of us have that mentality. It is in our very human nature. Survival of the fittest. We all need it to survive so we just need to live with it. The problem is that some people ( I wouldn't consider them one if its up to me) tend to be a little bit more hooked into it, they don't realize they are overdoing it, thinking they have not done anything wrong. ( kakapal no?) Then there are some who utterly feel it in themselves, but they just don't care. They are the predators of society. And we herbivores need to cope with it, or in some cases eradicate them with extreme means. ( I would love to have I the chance...) Education cannot cure these fellows. It is not education they need because they are not completely ignorant about their doings. They just ignore it coz they think only of themselves ( survival of the fittest eh). They are next to serial killers because the part of the brain that is reminding them of compassion for others is underdeveloped. What they need is an electric shock to the head....Yeah... definitely needed.

Root Crisis part 3 : Ego Financial System

2009-04-20T17:45:00.000-07:00

One example of my efforts ( victorious but with no gratitude...yemen)

Humbug..

"One may understand the Cosmos, but never the Ego; the self is more distant than any star."
- G.K. Chesterton...

Hooray...

The 3rd and maybe the most overseen cause why we do not attain financial success is our each and every one's ego financial system.

What in the world does that mean? Actually it is simple. Each and every one of us may not know we abide by this system. It is killing us, but we don't know it. One word may describe this, and even the upper classes of society fell victim to it ( they are most easily seen and easier to describe). It is IGNORANCE!!! It is being blind to one's financial stature. Wanna know more? Stand by because my back aches and I think I should rest for a while...

will view my fs for a while...maybe some miracle can give me some good news...humbug

11:00 pinoy time
I had just recieved my landlady's bill for my rent amounting to 4,000.00. Nice... I had just paid two thousand plus for my internet, six thousand plus for my bank loans, and a couple of pesos for my 5-6 financer, then now what? I have no more money and there are ample customers today. Arrrrggggghhhh....let me die now...

I don't feel up to continuing my blog right now, nevertheless I'm bored. And even though I know my post right now would sound gloomy because of my "cloudy disposition" today, I need to finish this part.

!@$#@ what a &(^&*%%@#$%♣•○♦5← day today....

To all you fellowmen like me who know in their heart that they're suckers and losers and who's lives have no meaning in this world blah blah blah... let all ye know this... almost every man ( or woman ) including the upper classes think they are still hanging on the thin thread of money matters are already actually broke, poor, bankrupt and still not know it (or admit it). This is the ignorance that I am talking about...

Ever wonder or even think about your financial status at this time? You think you're not broke? Think again.... Let me cite myself as a stupid example... I resigned from my job and is into business today. I may have an ample material assets in my name but in fact I'm already bankrupt. I had refinanced my home a couple of times ( which I'm not even sure existed ) for business purposes just like almost everyone did too, maxed out my credit cards and is in so much debt that my liabilities by far exceeded my assets.( if I really have one) Even before I resigned, I was already up to neck in debt, and my incapacity to generate income for a while added to my miseries. You see, we declare or even think about being broke way far after we were actually broke!!! Can you read between the lines? When the time comes we realize that we are losing money, the truth is that we don't have any money at all. Specially Pinoys who love to borrow money, when your debt exceeds that of your assets, even though you are still capable of generating one, you are already broke without knowing it. Ignorance of this matter, ( not knowing you were already broke ) means you will try to mend it much too soon, much later that you should have. Resulting to failure, dissapiontment, grief, family breakdown, blah blah blah then ultimately you can't crawl out of it anymore. Then you just die. Of course there are ways to get by those experiences but the later you cure a disease, the harder it will be.

"Prevention is Better than Cure"

That should be our motto. We should constantly check and balance our finances to early cope with the problems to come. But what the truth is we are ignorant about this. We tend to borrow more money than we could actually pay for say, in our lifetime. So BE EDUCATED!!! Do not follow suit to other people. Borrowing money is not bad. In fact it can be used to generate more money. Just be cautious. And always perform check and balance... Like an old pinoy quote once said:

" Your credit is good but we need Cash"

One of my first pics when I started to study photo editing about 4 years ago... looks cool to me sometimes and sometimes looks dumb. Maybe depending on my mood....

Root Crisis part 2: Reward Yourself Mentality

2009-04-17T00:19:00.000-07:00

Northeast corner at Third Avenue
"Be wary of the riches of this world...you cannot carry them with you on the grave."
(because a car won't fit in your coffin much less your house)

Humbug...

Painting of my son and his cousins....9418

Humbug...

I have just finished my pending customers' orders today, and I feel very tired....haaaaaay...
Lucky for me there are a few customers that came by...(still not enough to cover my expenses)
Lucky for me I still have time to write a few words in my blog.
To a very far away friend out there who's celebrationg her birthday, sorry because my memory is so poor specially in nunbers that I even forget my own birthday much less my age...ehem ehem...
This is a small space in my blog dedicated for you....

MyNiceSpace.com

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As always I was interrupted by so much misery that even simply time for typing away was no leisure, more of an obligation for my part...coz we need to eat and you cannot eat your motherboard, right.

Anywaysss, Before I fly away from my topic, Let me introduce you all friends to another mentality that is a sore reality for us not only Filipinos but almost every human being...Maybe because its our instinct, or maybe we are programmed that way by history. The big urge to splash ourselves and specially our loved ones with all we may know is important but when analyzed may be found as unnecessary pleasures and luxuries in life.

There are so much examples, and one of them is me... I used to love toys when I was a kid. But my mother won't buy me anything ( and I thanked her somehow for teaching mee to be frugal.) Now that I am all grown up, I tend to buy so much toys ( FOR MY SON OF COURSE ) that when I realized that it already cost me a fortune collecting them. Maybe inside in one's ego, they or I just wanted to fill the gaps of my childhood. Maybe a part of them were not really for my son but for me... but now I learned ( the hard way ) but I still tend to buy my son a gift every now and then when I have the chance ( and the cash). Cash I should have invested properly to earn more then I could buy all the things that I want... Maybe.... That's my opinion.

Another example is our very own Manny Pacquiao. Forgive me fans... I just have the tendency to sulk at people getting their hands on the green. Specially those who did it seemed so easy. ( I know that was not easy... I said SEEMED SO EASY OKAY..??) Let's all contemplate, he was poor right, but with the help of God, his friends and that very tough heart (and hand), he managed to come to the top... Now he is on the top look... A very big house, too much cars ( than he can handle mostly) , hundreds of fighting cocks and maybe a whole city of relatives ( too bad)
From rags to riches he made it, then all his frustrations as a child came into play, and he is now rewarding himself. That's not bad at all. after all, he worked hard for it with sweat and blood. A thing he must be concerned of is how to manage his assets, not too much rewarding onesself.
Thanks for some people ( Freddie Roach a great example) for helping Pacman manage his assets, teaching him to save some for the rainy day. Because we all know that boxing is not forever, and when you make a mistake of not saving for retirement, you may end up broke and ill for the rest of your days. Graping the fact you had so much then after losing it to the ones you thought your friends, now gone with the wind with your money. That is an inevitable human trait.

"When there's no more milk, we leave the cow and come back only when there's milk again..."
( worse case is you get butchered...how evil...)

My point is that we all somehow work our butts out to make a living. Then when the most awaited 13th month pay or bonus comes, we splurge to luxury, thinking there's no end on the cash flow. Like it's from a never ending well of wealth. We buy a cellphone, watch movies, go out with the family, renovate our house, a car, a bike, new clothes, everything. That isn't so bad, after all we say that we worked our butts out. But after the holidays, we should ask ourselves. Where am I now? I say to you, you were back to where you started. ( with new clothes and car and etc etc ... of course) But will be waiting again for the new break, nw commission, new bonus. I hope they always come as expected. But believe me most of the time they don't.

I'm not lecturing you. Its my point of view. If you think I'm wrong and spending every penny you earn thinking there's a next month pay and bonus and super duper wealth to come is your thing, then be my guest. After all, you worked your butts out.

Swimming in Pansol 2004 I think, One of my luxury gift for my son's birthday. Ohh give me a break...

Root Crisis part 1: Employee Mentality

2009-04-16T18:28:00.000-07:00

"Give a man a fish will feed him for a day. Teach a man to fish and you'll feed him for a lifetime. Teach a man to teach his friends and relatives and neighbors and enemies how to fish then you build a nation. Teach all those people how to maintain, preserve and help one another to enrich their craft, you have made a paradise..."

Wala lang...type ko lang sabihin un... (It's nothing, I just typed those saying anyway)

As I promised to myself. Even though I'm bored with this topic because I have no money. (What? money, what is money?) (sarcastic). here is the continuation of the money crisis post:

Blah, blah, blah... The employee mentality of the Filipinos is the culprit why we are a third world nation. (next to corruption). Im not against employment let me clear (because there's no business without its workers)....But be warned you Filipino people...if we all strive to be employees, all that's left to do business are the foreigners...(then we blame the government while we overlook the fact that it is partially our fault.) That's one reason ( I remember how we get angry after getting comments on the net or in tv about some insults regarding our kababayans working abroad. Our domestic helpers, our ofw's... I am not against working abroad but whether you agree or not, it's giving us Filipinos a very bad "slave of the world" impression. "DH capital of the world. " Before you all give in to war because of those insults, why not ponder the root causes for this. Do'nt we all in a way (deep inside) treat our house helps as lower class? Don't we smirk at the thought of being garbage workers? Wake up....every one of us is a racist inside...it is in our genes. ( let Marian Rivera and Pokwang sit side by side on a booth then tell me whos booth will have more people. Both are outright celebrities but the inner racists of us willeventually pin us down specially the "tupperwares out there" NO OFFENSE PLEASE) IT IS BY BEING LOWLY WORKERS THAT WE ARE PERCIEVED AS ONE... Think and act as professionals and they would treat us all sa professionals. I repeat, I am not against employment and being a migrant worker. My point is there should be enough jobs for all Filipinos so that we need not be slaves of other lands. To be thought as businessmen not slave country. Where would we find that enough work? From our businessmen. More business means more money for our capitalists (I was referring to our fellowmen) More jobs and better economy. Instead of our president going trips abroad wooing investors to come to our country (to give us employment where they get richer using our resources and we getting leftovers) Let this be a wake up call to our government: "HELP THE ENTREPRENEURS SPECIALLY THE SMALL ONES AND THE ASPIRING ONES. DON'T BE SELFISH AND MIND YOURSELVES...THINK FOR OUR COUNTRY.."(if you even care)

that's enough hatred for a day.....hope to write again soon....

Root Crisis: Prologue

2009-04-14T16:41:00.000-07:00

“An object deviates from its predicted path and does not appear when an object is watched and is awaited.”

There’s no customer yet, and I’m free to blog all I want.

One of my greatest frustrations in life, I always ask myself, when there’s so much evil (money) in this world, Why only a few has it and someone like me lack it so much? Why while there’s so much money today, only a fraction of society get hold on to it?

There’s so many theories about it. And some I am most confident about: Filipinos’

Employee Mentality
Reward yourself Mentality
Ego Finances
Crab Mentality
Tahong Mentality

Whether you agree or not, those mentalities deprive us of a chance to create a stable finance status.

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I was interrupted for two days...my landlady is threatening to evict me, the bank threatens to turn to collecting agencies, and the phone and internet company is threatening to disconnect me. What's with threats nowadays? Do you think someone whose decently running a business would run for a months' rent, a months' bill and mortgage? You fools! What will happen is you'll lose a hundred customers. You'll lose me for sure. and my referrals and my friends and my colleagues and my relatives and a whole lot more. This time of depression is nothing but temporary, so its not wise to crack your credit lines. After I survive this, (if I will) I bet you you'll never see my name on your list again. Which reminds me: That's a good theory why we don't prosper. We're so greedy. We think of others so lowly. That's just my opinion. So sue me. Yeah you ciditigi...

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I was interrupted again for one day so my blog could also be called Time Crisis ( I love that Game) Anyway, I will just postpone my blog about root crisis on another session and just blabber about for the rest of this post.

My spirits are broken this past days because of many problems that haunt me. I need not enumerate kasi baka maiyak pako. (I might cry). I remember yesterday I typed the words "please help me Lord on the google bar. And boy how helpful! I got so many sites giving inspirational messages then selling something in the end...gosh. I got one site (need not tell) that's okay but It has a huge traffic (I guess) that it took me an hour of loading and still It doesn't finish and I can't access it. Then I typed I want to kill myself then walaaaaahh! there's a site that's helping me cope by stalling me with good words telling me to wait a little bit longer ( saying it would only take a short while just read along then after that you can proceed to kill yourself if you still want to... NICE WORDS...Maybe there's so many desperate people nowadays....Is the world gonna end? I hope not...And I hope to find new light before I decide to turn my lights off...

The Root of All Evil part 2

2009-04-12T22:00:00.000-07:00

Like what I’ve said that money can’t buy you happiness…blah blah blah…happier….therefore when I said that money is the root of all evil, then we can make use of evil things to make some good in this world. Sounds crazy even I was confused not of what I meant but of how I stated my sentence from the beginning.

What? Use evil for good? Let me cite an example: You bought a new component system. That’s luxury. Then instead of listening to music all day long inside your room why not try to form a group then launch parties for street children. Okay okay I sounded lame, but it’s the truth.

Talk about investments. Ever wonder how institutions, grant organizations, award bodies, and charity foundations get funding? One of the answer: Investments. Trust me coz I graduated from one. I am an alumnus of The Sisters of Mary School. Pretty tough huh. ( then why am I babbling about negativism and sore loserness? If I find the answer I’ll let you know). Well let’s talk about investments later. My point is when I for example create one foundation and names it after me (which is the case most of the time) (LIKE: de Jorge foundation for free college education to poor, orphaned sexy pretty girls….JUST KIDDING) Ask yourself, why would I create a charity institution then banner my name next to it? Surely my name and of my descendants will surely be a brand name, celebrity, elite status. I help, I’m famous, my family famous, more talk, more opportunities, more money. Trust me, That’s always the case.

Hey…correct me if you think I’m wrong. Say all you want. It’s my opinion. But I know I’m always right.

I begin to feel not up to the task when talking about positive things. Believe me, I’m a positive thinking guy. ( it’s my inner self that’s negative, and they always fight) If I’m not positive thinking, I would have been dead by now. ( already killed myself because of so many problems) My writing becomes monotonous, or I start to blend negative things on my positive theme. Forgive me I guess I was just sour graping coz I know what I want to do, I know what to plan next when I get to my dream. (financial indipendece) but here I am not getting a bit nearer my dream. When I think about that I become frustrated. No, I become furious…ROOOOAARRRR..

The Root of All Evil

2009-04-12T20:37:00.000-07:00

“Money is the root of all evil. But without roots everything dies”

“Money can’t buy you happiness, but it’s a sure tool to make yourself and others happy, thereby making you happier”. It’s my twist to an old adage. (Hmmm, maybe the fact that I twist many things, adages, and beliefs to my liking may have caused misfortune in the first place. I think too much..) Surely money can’t buy everything but for me it’s surely true that money makes the world go round.

You can be a happy family without cash, but the mere lack of money can cause hunger, sickness, lack of nutrition, education mounting to family breakdown and eventually ending a person and his family whom he says can live without money dead. Let me ask you something. If you live in the urban areas which we will both presume you don’t mean to since birth, Can you live with your loved ones without eating? You may boast of a fact that “ We live only by our own means, planting crops on our small garden, selling spare harvest to pay for our necessities.” Then here comes the reaper: a greedy businessman or a government official decided to forfeit your land for some “for the nation” project. (it still happens in the Philippines up to now) give you so much cash (if your lucky coz sometimes they treat you as aliens in your own land) You thought you couldn’t spend for a lifetime say, 1 Million. For some of us, 1 million seemed an endless fortune well. An endless supply of money. ( you think? Then you’re wrong) In reality, you could actually lose it so fast that even I could spend it faster than you could say “savings account”. Now, when all the money is spent Can you still say you can’t live without money? Would you plant your crops in the highway? And it all boils back down from the beginning. You lose food, education, breakdown, blah blah blah… and DIE. Definitely money is an integral part of society. “we can all live without it...remove money from the system.” Do you want to mess America? Chaos…..Yeah like a communist if we can all be converted and yes I believe we can all live without cash if we all want to, if you like to return to the stone age and all the dinosaurs come back to life… Sounds Cool (and sarcastic and lame and corny and stupid)

"Money is like a sixth sense, you can’t make use of the other five without it.”
You can’t see if you can’t take care of your eyes. Say, good nutrition, poor lighting while studying. When eyesight deteriorates, you can’t even afford a pair of glasses. Yes folks, this is the typical 3rd class Filipino. You can’t buy a hearing aid? Can’t afford an mp3 player to enjoy your hearing senses while you still have it. If you are modest about your finances, you can’t even buy a transistor radio for goodness sake. Good thing we can steal music from our neighbors. While they’re listening to music the overflow of sound we still could hear. (Sorry but I can’t help but to add this. Some tactless individuals can buy all the luxury they can afford, from the latest gadgets, phones and players, while compromising the bare necessities and the overlooked task to prepare for retirement. When the health and youth are gone and you haven’t a penny to spend, You can’t enjoy listening to music anymore.) Can’t taste good food? Rotting and dying in your rut without even experiencing a fancy to your palettes. Fragrance, flowers? Oh the stench of your dilapidated home if you could call it, in a nearby “estero”. How could you feel the warmth of the touch of your family, after your spouse left you for some “richer” fellow.
I may sound so negative. But it’s the sore truth that without the spending power in the world we live in today, you can’t enjoy the good things in life much less enjoy even the most basic of our needs and birthright.

Some claim to have died in peace in some God-forsaken province without having to bother having or spending money. I salute them…Good for them. But can we all follow suit? Can we just all go there to that place where money is not a factor. Yippey!!! Then what? When 20 million people go there to that so called paradise, the need for money will follow. Coz the resources wouldn’t fit and it would be paradise no more. I’m open to critics. I love it coz I’m a critic myself. I stand to my belief that in this world, without money you are nothing. Nothing but a second rate trying hard “coffee cut” (how stupid is that) I can explain, When you’re broke and all you eat is coffee, then all the disappointments and trials looms down on you, YOU CUT YOURSELF! That’s too much coffee then you CUT! ( how stupideeeer)

A journey of no reason

2009-04-12T17:04:00.000-07:00

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I’m back again…whew! That was fast. A customer paused me on what I was doing. Now after the sexy lady patron of mine left, Now I have time for this pointless escapade of mine. I think I'm losing the drive to go on. I'm not sure if because I was interrupted or I was just overwhelmed by the gorgeous customer? Well, need to continue.

I don't think what I'm telling here would be of interest to any readers on the net. But This is my biography. Walang pakialaman! ( just kidding ). I think (or I just keep telling myself) that writing this thing of mine gives me a sense of fulfillment, a simple outlet to let go of my inner feelings and frustrations, keeping me alive.

I have a blog at friendster. I wish I could insert those clips here. There are some tagalog words, but I don't mind. I hope it would not compromise my blog here at google. I just want to keep it for it's sentimental value. Taddaaaahhhh.... here it is.

(From friendster to blogger with LOVE?)

Ang Hirap Kumita ng Pera (8Y19)

One of my favorite adages in life is - “Money can’t buy you happiness. But it’s a sure way to make others happy thereby making you happier.” But the fact is, finding money is as hard as giving up your personal happiness in order to meet it. I have tried so many things just to earn that hard to find wealth to no avail. Sometimes I think that God just could’nt help but take joy in seeing poor men became poorer despite enormous efforts and rich men grow richer while just easing around. Forgive me friends if I am losing hope to a point of sinning agaist God. I’m a catholic with deep origins. But I guess all this experiences made me a near unbeliever. Well today is another day and I guess I’ll have to start and fight to live again…

Live or let die

Another difficulty in managing a business is the businessman’s ability to be shrewd at times. In the early stages of my career as a businessman, I have met a couple of personalities that changed my views in life. I was too good to them that I trusted them so much to a point that they cheated on me. (o masyado lang talagang makakapal mukha nila). I lost so much of my time effort money and talent trying to please them but I got nothing i return. I was just used as leverage. (pero san na sila ngayon). Ang bilis ng karma. Nalugi lahat ng bisnes nila.

At this point I was more careful in choosing the persons that I help. I don’t ask something in return. I just want to be recognized, and PAY YOUR OBLIGATIONS even if they are late. Its better than not settling them at all. If someone helps you to start your business help them back specially when you kow outrightly that they also need your help. (It’s OBVIOUS)

Lack of Gut? or Lack of Luck

I have a wonderful business. It coincides with my passion and I love working with it. The problem is that I lack the resources to fund my business. I other words, it’s incomplete. I learned a lot in this business. Deciding to run a business with inadequate capital is like taking your hard earned money on top of a bridge then throwing them away. Worst part is you could be dragged down with it. In short it can be fatal.

I’m running my business for almost 6 months now. But due to lack of funds it doesn’t earn much. There are times not even enough to pay the rent and other basic utilities. Its like suicide at times. But what can I do? I need this job or my family will starve. I hate this life…

I would like to thank Friendster.com for keeping my blog and to blogger for allowing me to insert them in my new blog...thanks

Waaaait a minute. The title says a journey of no reason but where's the journey? And why no reason? Maybe because I'm too much fed up in life that I think of things so passionately, so sentimental, so gloomy, that It makes no sense but I like it so just stick with it I guess.

The Start of My Pointless Journey

2009-04-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

I'm broke, my business is failing, my attempts futile, my perseverance crashing, my family starving and my debt is haunting me. Yet before I say goodbyes to this barren, greedy world, I feel it's time to write about my life, how miserable I am, of my costly mistakes, my very bad luck, and my stupid misdirections. Time is constantly running out. And still here I am, typing my guts out.

This is my veeeery first blog here.....maybe I had been lured here on a promise to earn anything at first. But my inner negative side prevents me, telling myself it would never work, that only physical work earns. How in the world would someone pay you for writing nothing? Well it's vacation time for the schools. And my almost bancrupt printing business beside some god-forsaken public school will now be if not TOTALLY DEAD, will surely be in Coma if not for continuing funds to still revive it till next school season. More money to pay for the rent, utilities like electricity water, internet and phone bills, my allowance in opening the office everyday. Money, a tool I'm very scarce at today. Hope to think of another racket to earn cash.

Well, since it's vacation time might as well give it a try. No customers means more free time. More time to spend writing about my blog. Hoooray! at last some good news for me, I guess..
Forgive me for my english....I'm a spontaneous speaker not very mindful of my grammar...

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It's been more than a week since I last reviewed my blog. I haven’t got time to go to my shop for a while because of the holy week, and today is my first day with no classes. My shop near a school but far from the people traffic, bad sign. My shop earning measly during class season and now with little patrons, worse. My shop offering little services because of lack of funds, now having to pay all utilities in this time of crisis, worst. The only positive thing about this vacation season is that I will have more time for my blog.

What can I say? I don’t even know how to write a blog. I suck at html codes and I have nothing more to say than to tell the whole world how miserable I am. Might as well stick with it, I guess. I think I’ll just make a little autobiography of myself. A man so poor that he wasted all his intelligence and talent (wow), not pursuing college education coz he can’t afford it. A man wasting his precious time, the only abundant resource he had at that time to a bastard company who’s only mission is to gain profits compromising it’s associates’ future, wasting their golden time. Time they should have used to improve their financial futures, instead worked hard for a measly income, losing their youth as a result. Now aging and hopeless, they are just dumped. What a great corporation, advertising excellence in craftsmanship with core values but deep within not living up by them. Hail to the three diamond company!!!

Wait a customer is coming. I need to prepare a smile as if there is no problems. They must not sense my negativity or my business will surely be affected. Till next time to meeee…byesss